IWSG: knowing what I do now, what would I have done differently in 2017?

Hosted by: Insecure Writer's Support Group

Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!

Posting: The first Wednesday of every month is officially Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. Visit others in the group and connect with your fellow writer - aim for a dozen new people each time - and return comments. This group is all about connecting! Be sure to link to this page and display the badge in your post. And please be sure your avatar links back to your blog! If it links to Google+, be sure your blog is listed there. Otherwise, when you leave a comment, people can't find you to comment back.

Let’s rock the neurotic writing world!

Our Twitter handle is @TheIWSG and hashtag is #IWSG

Every month, we announce a question that members can answer in their IWSG post. These questions may prompt you to share advice, insight, a personal experience or story. Include your answer to the question in your IWSG post or let it inspire your post if you are struggling with something to say.

The awesome co-hosts for December 6 are Julie Flanders, Shannon Lawrence, Fundy Blue and Heather Gardner.

Remember, the question is optional! Here is this month's question: 

As you look back on 2017, with all its successes/failures, if you could backtrack, what would you do differently?

So here I am, dipping my feet in IWSG and feeling very insecure. Guess I'm in the right place. My answer is long. If you want to skip to the summary at the end, it won't hurt my feelings.

This was me at the beginning of 2017: After an 18-month family crisis that ended sadly on December 27 of 2016, and an ongoing crisis with ups and downs (the new normal), I started 2017 with the intent of focusing again on my writing.

Fall of 2016, I had started a wagon train-themed book targeted for Love Inspired’s historical line, as they had stipulated that they were seeking wagon train stories. I spent a couple of months researching wagon trains. Fortunately, research is fun.

I was half-finished with a draft in [March] when Love Inspired announced they were closing the line. It was the second line in two years that I had hoped to break into, only to learn they were closing their doors.

That, combined with the fact that Christian publishers were significantly reducing the size of their fiction output, or discontinuing their fiction lines entirely, took the wind out of my sails. Christian fiction publishing had taken a huge hit due to Family Christian bookstores filing for bankruptcy.

Around the same time, my Wordpress.org website was up for renewal. As I was unpublished and there weren't possibilities, even on a distant horizon, I could no longer justify spending $500.00 a year to maintain a website.

Especially one that broke in one way or another every time Wordpress updated itself, which was frequent. Bluehost, which hosted it, also had its problems. I was glad to say good riddance to the design and maintenance of my own, way-too-expensive site.

I returned to good ole’ blogspot and opened a new blog. I had left a perfectly good blogspot blog three years previously. Why I did not return to it (this one), rather than spending a lot of time developing a new one, is something I would definitely do different.

Especially because here I am, back at the blog I'd abandoned in 2014.

But I didn't know I would return, then. In May, when I set up the other blogspot blog, I reasoned that because the blog you're reading had been a YA book review and writer’s blog, and I intended to review Christian nonfiction exclusively on the new blog, I needed an entirely separate blog in which to do it.

Different audiences = different blogs, right?

However I am now convinced it's unnecessary to maintain two separate blogs, especially as I now plan to review YA fiction, sweet and Inspy romance, and Christian nonfiction, on this blog. So I imported posts from the CNF blog into this one. I hope to attract an audience that reads and loves all of these genres as much as I do.

Though Love Inspired had announced it was closing the line I had hoped to break into, I continued to work on the wagon train story until late August, when a third family crisis affected my life greatly. It bumped me (and especially my writing routine) off track for a couple of months.

Oh, the slings and arrows of life.

In September, I attended a one-day SCBWI conference in Spokane with a good friend whose first book had debuted with a small press in July. Congratulations, Sharon!!!

That, combined with the earlier negative happenings (lines folding and the massive shrinkage of the Christian fiction market), got me interested in writing for the YA market again.

So for the past two months, I've been revising one of my two completed YA manuscripts.

And today, I have returned to this, my original blog, inaugurating it with a post about my writing insecurities! Ha. Yes, they are many and deep. 

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Summary: 

If I could've known at the beginning of the year what I know now, I would've returned immediately to this blog after closing down my WordPress.org website instead of messing around for a few months, creating and posting on a separate blogspot blog. Heck, if in the spring of 2014 I had known what I know now, I would never have created the WordPress.org website and I could've saved a ton of effort and money. Such is life.

As to which fiction genre I should be writing, I am admittedly guilty of wandering. I'd gone from YA to Inspirational and now back to YA. It just seems that Christian fiction is not currently the market in which I should be spending my time. So I plan to continue down the YA path until I learn otherwise.

I have a plan and I am not stuck. As Seth Godin says, “The way to get unstuck is to start down the wrong path, right now.”

Having read this, do you think I should've stayed with the Inspy market? Self-published? Is returning to YA a logical direction?

What about you? What would you have done differently in your circumstances?